Today, I was just sitting around with Jazmine and a stray thought just jumped up into my head...."Damn, I sure have come a long way!" I already posted yesterday about what's going on with me, but I wanted to share something with the rest of the good people who have read my journal from day one and who have shared in my pain and given me nothing but love and support. I used to always ask myself if there was someone out there who would ever love me the way that I loved Summer. I guess God knew the answer to that and in due time he gave me the answer that I was looking for. The following is an excerpt from Jazmine's web journal that I wanted to share with everyone for two reasons. One, because it truly illustrates that time does indeed heal all wounds and Two, well, I know that somewhere out there that a certain someone is going to stumble across this entry and say to themselves "Damn, I really did make a mistake."  I know that sounds a little sick and twisted but now that I moved on, its like Rhett told Scarlett in gone with the wind..."Frankly my dear...I don't give a damn! "

Now, onto my favorite topic and the reason that I've been grinning insanely and have been happier than I've been in a LONG time, Gemini. He's wonderful. We're in SUCH a good place. We're getting closer and closer...and I'm falling harder and harder...one thing that I can honestly say, and I have done a lot of soul searching to figure this out...and I didn't have a choice in the matter. Not that you really ever do in matters of the heart. Somehow, when I wasn't paying attention, and I wasn't expecting it to happen...I fell in love with the man.  Yes...I said it, I said the L-word. My LOVELY family pointed out that it's so painfully obvious, that I could have it tattooed across my forhead and it STILL wouldn't be able to compare with the way it radiates from me. My grandmother had been in town last week, and me, her,my bro, and my mother all went out for a day (which at one point turned into tease me day) but she just kept looking at me. Over dinner, she pointed out that "I've never seen you in love, not like this. You really, really love this man." Which I could only respond, "yes".  People who don't really know me have noticed it. He's affected my moods, any time I think of him, I can't help but smile. He is so intelligent...I love having conversations with him. We can talk about anything and everything, he knows so much more japanese than me...so he's teaching me that, and I'm teaching him Spanish (which he's open to, and learns quickly). I feel so safe with him, he takes care of me, and shows so much trust in me, and I in him. I know that one day he'll be everything that I see in him. (award winning actor) and once everyone else can see what I already do, the groupies will be coming out of the woodwork...I trust him. I know how much he cares and how much I mean to him. And I know that none of these other guys could compare to him. He's protective, caring, sweet, and I find him to be incredibly sexy. Bottom line, he makes me happy...and reguardless of how things turn out...we'll always be friends. Wonderful no? Never thought this would happen to me again. Well, I'm just going to ride this thing til the wheels fall off! (to quote him) Anyway, I've got to run...so peace.

I hope that you all get a good laugh out of this high comedy because I know that I did and it just goes to show that even though things may seem bad at the time, there's always something better over the horizon.